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Why…

Posted by: Life on: October 29, 2009

Why is life the way it is…why all these worries..?? Why can’t we just have what we want? Why is it that some people are very lucky in everything that they do…and why is it that some just don’t seem to have any luck with the things they most want..oh hell!

Why is it that people fall, get up and fall flat again, repeating the same mistake again and again…don’t tell me they are inspired by the ant story…puhleeeeze!! Why is it that people are attracted towards things that are actually out of reach for them or impossible to own…Why is it that the mysterious or the different is desired the most…

Why is it that people love breaking rules…the ones having some guts I mean to say…or maybe they are plain foolish coz they tread the difficult path without thinking what the results might be…Why is it that there are always boundaries, societal pressure, culture and blah blah blah when you want to do something that gives you happiness….Should one follow what his heart says or think logically??

Why can’t everyone be happy at the same time??? Should one think about self-happiness or other’s happiness?? Why is it that when one thinks about one’s own happiness he is called a selfish person…Why is it that some people are born just to sacrifice for others?? Oh heck!! Huh…

When God made such beautiful surroundings, creatures why is there so much hatred?? Why are there wars??? Why can’t everyone live in peace?? Why are there so many conflicts…Why such greed…hunger for power…

Why is it that I am asking so many questions??? Well, I had started writing the blog with a different focus and ended up saying things which were going on in my mind since long….

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Why Am I A Shopaholic???

Posted by: Life on: October 18, 2009

Yeah people…I very willingly admit that I am a shopaholic. The Oxford dictionary defines the word as “a compulsive shopper” and another defines it as “a person who shops compulsively or very frequently”. Well, yes that’s what I do!

I think I am a compulsive buyer because I just tend to buy stuff everytime I go out to a mall or a shop. If I set my eyes on somethin then I just gotta have it..and if I don’t, and that’s very rare, then I keep thinking about it till I fall asleep or till I finally get it the next day :)

I don’t know about others but shopping gives me immense happiness, and if it is from my own earnings then heck, its all the more better! Gives my ego a real boost and I tend to shop even more. After my shopping’s done, I feel as if I am on cloud nine. Just feels greatttt!!

There are some positive things too about my shopping. I usually use the stuff which I am buying and rarely does anything go waste. And I just don’t buy stuff only for myself, I buy gifts too for the people I love. It feels great, I tell you, just to see a smile on their faces.

I think I shop more than anyone in my group of friends and colleagues! Yeah…And I don’t even feel guilty about it. And even if I try to convince myself that I should not be spending so much and take any resolution that I will control my shopping spree, I just forget everything the minute I enter a mall and all my resolutions vanish into thin air  :)

Maybe because I don’t have any responsibilities to fulfill I shop without a care in the world. But then I would not recommend it to everyone, of course. I mean, one should always save for any contingency that may arise. I know, I know, people who know me will frown upon this advice of mine, coz it just doesn’t go with me…pheww..

But still, as I am writing this blog, I once again feel I should think twice before I pick up any stuff from next time on..let’s see if this really works.

OK i gotta go now…going out for some……….window shopping…hehe

Seems Like a Longgg Time…..

Posted by: Life on: July 25, 2009

Oh it seems like a long time since I posted something….so many things happening at a time…got no time to blog…

Well to begin with my brother and sis-in-law from US are here on a vacation…yup my brother brought goodies for me and a whole lot of chocolates :)

He got me fragrances too..Davidoff Freeze which is indeed cool and a very very beautifully fragrant body spray ButterflyFlower…oh I like it very much….

Job’s going on fine but not without some speed breakers…I mean sometimes there’s some positive development from the UK team and some times its brick-bats..so life’s not so easy..hmmm but still I am enjoying this phase of my life…some good things some not so good but on the whole I am happy :) and that is what’s more important isn’t it?? Atleast for myself and the people who care about me…

And ya there’s some uncertainity about my job….layoffs are formally being announced and gossip’s that the company is facing difficult times…so let’s see what’s in store…

OK that’s about it for now…more in next..till then…

Hasta la Vista!!!

Strange Love Story or Maybe Not That Strange…

Posted by: Life on: June 20, 2009

Hello people! Its been long since I posted something…and a lot has happened during this time…and the latest is that I have got some new guests at my home. Guess who???

Well, got a new aquarium with some very beautiful fish of different types, sizes and colours – silver, golden, black ones with orange fins, yellow with black dots, white, plain black, and gray big ones. I was superexcited about them when we got them last weekend. All of them are in pairs and know what?? even while moving within the aquarium they always move with their partner only. I found this quite interesting and started monitoring them closely.

But unfortunately, soon they started dying. By the time I would return from the office atleast one would have died :(

My parents said that it was because they had a change of place it was difficult for them to adjust. I felt very bad.

And then I noticed that if one of the pair would die today, by next day its partner would be dead! You gotta believe me!

I was myself quite taken aback. I saw that the one whose partner was dead would deliberately stop swimming around and just stick to one place, most of the times at the bottom of the aquarium. It would not mix with any other fish group and was committing suicide! Well that’s what it is…isn’t it???

We humans boast so much about love and brag endlessly about how we can go to any lengths for our love and blah blah blah .. but such tiny creatures who dont even have a definite language speak the language of love so very perfectly!! Amazing!!

As someone rightly said love has no language…maybe its all about genuine feelings, companionship, loyalty and the undying feeling of togetherness even when you are two different beings…

So maybe what the fish were doing was not that strange after all. Till death do us apart??? Naaah. They have managed to challenge even death from taking away their love. Whoa!!

I might be the wrong person to speak about such fairytale stuff…but couldn’t help it.

Oh coming back to my aquarium, well we will get more new fish very soon :)

How Ugly Can it Get?

Posted by: Life on: May 27, 2009

During my research for some Army news I happened to come across this article (given below). I just could not take it…I felt as if I had gone numb for sometime…huh
How much more ugly can it get?? Ohh damn these bastards! And damn these wars, damn the bloody US and damn the ex-prez Bush!! and dunno what this Mr.Obama has in store…
And what do these wars give?? Does anyone even think about the poor civilians? What torture they go through?
I mean why does the US always have to poke its nose in others matters? Who has given it the right to do so and kill lakhs and lakhs of innocent civilians. Where the hell are the WMDs that Saddam was supposed to have? After murdering thousands of Iraqis the US simply tells that no WMD was found. How easy.. aint it? Where the hell does the UN go when the US is playing havoc with innocent lives..damn it where????
When one freaky american soldier gets killed it becomes a headline in the newspapers…but when thousands of Iraqis or Afghanis are slaughetered no body cares! Are other lives so cheap?
Everytime I see the urdu newspapers (ya the english ones rarely carry these) I see heartwrenching photos of the beautiful Iraqi women crying,  cute little kids lying dead with injuries on their innocent faces…huh I just can’t take it…are others able to take it so easily and not do anything about it? Yes.. eventhough I feel terrible about it what am I doing? JUST NOTHING! Except trying to avoid such ghastly pictures I do nothing…
If only there was no war on this planet…if only everybody lived peacefully..if only innocent lives were not sacrificed to satiate the egos of the powerful…if only there was no hatred in this world…if only….huh…
Why can’t I do anything about it…..
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Jury spares ex-soldier’s life for Iraq rape, murders
By Donna Groves – 5 days ago

PADUCAH, Kentucky (AFP) — A Kentucky jury has handed a former US soldier a sentence of life in prison for the gang rape and murder of an Iraqi girl and the slaughter of her family, sparing him from the death sentence.

After 10 hours of deliberation Wednesday and Thursday the nine women and three men on the jury returned without a unanimous verdict for an execution.

Their failure to agree effectively handed Steven Dale Green life in prison without the possibility of parole for the rape and killing of 14-year-old Abeer al-Janabi and the murder of her mother, father and six-year-old sister.

The judge will impose the sentence on September 4.

Green, named as the ringleader in the March 2006 atrocity, was tried in a civilian court after being discharged from the army due to a “personality disorder” before his role in the crime came to light.

Three other soldiers were given life sentences for the attack, which they plotted over whiskey and a game of cards at a traffic check point in Mahmudiyah, south of Baghdad.

During closing arguments of his sentencing hearing, Green was described alternately as “criminal and perverse” and deserving of the death penalty, and as a “broken warrior” whose life should be spared

After the juror’s indecision was read out, representatives of the Iraqi family openly wept in court, and Green smiled slightly.

His father, John Green, said the result was “the better of two bad choices, but the better one by far.”

Green’s brother Doug added, “Given the choices it’s the only appropriate verdict.

“I have mixed emotions about it, but I do think it will allow him to have some semblance of a life and I’m very grateful for that.”

There “won’t be any celebrating tonight by the defense team,” Green’s defense team said in a statement.

A member of the defense team, Darren Wolff, stressing that he was speaking individually on what until now had only been rumored, revealed that Green had offered to plead guilty in exchange for a life sentence.

Such a deal, however, had been nixed by some in the highest levels of the US government, he said.

“Steven Green did not want to try this case,” Wolff said.

“He offered to plead guilty on two separate occasions in exchange for his life. Those pleas were rejected by the Department of Justice.

“That is when it became obvious that this case was not about fairness or equity, it was about appeasing the overseas communities who have been calling for Mr Green’s execution.

“We are pleased the jury did not bow to those politically motivated pressures.”

Assistant US attorney Brian Skared maintained the defense was playing a “blame game,” filling the sentencing phase with testimony about Green’s chaotic and neglectful childhood and shoddy leadership of his unit in Iraq.

“They’ve tried to make Mr Green a victim,” he said.

Instead, he said Green was not acting on instinct or impulse when he killed the Janabi family but had planned the rape and murders with a “criminal and perverse mind,” and then celebrated when it was over.

Skared rejected the notion that the stresses of war and losses of others in Green’s unit led him to commit the acts.

“If they knew their deaths were somehow being provided as mitigation for this, they would roll over in their graves,” he said. “None of that explains what he did to this family.”

But defense attorney Scott Wendelsdorf had reminded jurors that Green sought help for combat stress three months before killing the Janabi family, repeatedly telling a lieutenant that he wanted to kill Iraqi civilians.

Wendelsdorf said Green would not have been there to commit the crimes had he been removed from duty when he sought help.

“Steven Green was responsible (for the rape and murders) but the United States of America failed Steven Green,” Wendelsdorf said.

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Current Happenings..

Posted by: Life on: May 18, 2009

Well life is moving at a hectic pace…Last week I shifted from the Projects team to the News team since I felt that News writing was quite happening and interesting and you also get instant feedbacks from the UK team.

Infact, I have already received positive feedback for some of the defense stories that I did. Ya, am handling Army news as well as Hospitals sector.

We also had training sessions from our Chief Editor from UK. He spoke about some basic rules of writing news articles which was like a revision of some known skills and a reminder too. So helpful I guess..

A lot of new developments in my life which I am happy about… Now gotta see where Life’s headed to..

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Down but not out!

Posted by: Life on: May 6, 2009

Yeaahhh… am down with cold :( which includes severe throatache, headache and a bit of bodyache. Yesterday I came home early from office thinking that it would get better by the next day. But even today I had to take leave since I was just not feeling well. So here I am – blogging and uploading photos on flickr.

Yesterday when my Dad came to pick me up I thought he would sympathize with my condition and would drive himself but to my surprise he said, “Dear your throat is aching but that has nothing to do with you not driving!” Ouch!! I had no choice but to drive but I do enjoy driving…it feels as if am flyinggg…it gives me a sense of independence and I feel great… not considering the traffic system ofcourse…

When I reached home my Mom said she is also suffering from the same symptoms and to my horror she said they are also the symptoms of swine flu!! Damn!! Huh..I was about to panic just then luckily I remembered that the flu has not reached India and I coolly conveyed the same to her and told that we are safe by the grace of God…she felt a sense of relief…and me too..

But still we went to the doctor and he prescribed some antibiotics…I took them after dinner but still felt no significant difference…in the morning decided not to go to office…but after my breakfast dose I am feeling much better and most probably by tomorrow I will be back in action Inshallah!

And now I gotta go and chk out the gardening that my Mom and Dad are doing..

Hasta la vista!

My Great Escapades…Part 1

Posted by: Life on: May 1, 2009

Well.. know what?? I am learning to drive the 4-wheeler, infact I am on my way or rather I am already on tracks! I drive almost everyday to my office but ofcourse not without my father…now that’s OK i guess..atleast I am trying! Now come on give me a pat on my back for being courageous enough to take to the roads and that too Hyderabad’s roads with our very ‘apne’ Hyderabadis casually strolling around as if they were in their gardens!!

I swear it gets on to my nerves when someone crosses the roads as if they, as well as we the drivers have all the time in the world to just stop over and let them pass while they casually look around and glance here and there. Don’t be surprised if they are stuck to their mobiles even while crossing a heavily congested or a busy road. Oh for hell’s sake yaar you are in the middle of the road! If you are so desperate to stick to your phones go to some damn place and do your thing but leave the roads for safe driving! Even the most patient would lose their temper (just like me! Err..not that I am a patient soul..I am referring to the latter part) and my sympathies with them if they happen to get hypertension or BP or what not… just because of the very ‘organised’ traffic system, the ‘beautiful’ roads, the very ‘understanding’ autowallahs & 7-seaters and the great pedestrians! Huh! Everyday is a new learning experience for me and everyday I make a new escapade.

Thank God I am used to playing those freaky car video games wherein I was required to drive the car as if I am running for my life, or had the most bizarre of the routes…the almost perfect steering control that I am proud of is all courtesy these eccentric video games. Surprised? Don’t be… Infact I consider driving on real roads more horrendous than on these fictitious tracks…

Well my best wishes, sympathies, empathies etc etc to all the people who are driving 4-wheelers even 2-wheelers on Hyderabad’s roads…

Happy driving guys n gals!

Unpredictable – That’s Life I Say…

Posted by: Life on: April 1, 2009

Life…with its twists and turns, curves & curvatures amazes me…one can never know what’s in store for him/her….the dreams that we see….sometimes get fulfilled and sometimes shatter…but life goes on…

We have some expectations from our life…from the people surrounding us…even from ourselves…but when those expectations don’t get fulfilled it brings a lot of pain, heartache and dejection…I had read somewhere long time back that we should not have expectations from anything or anyone and only then we will be happy….but is it really possible not to have any expectations from our life? Since the time I read that I have been tryin hard not to have any expectations from anything or anyone but I swear its impossible! I hope most will agree with me regarding this..

I mean imagine you not having any expectations from your job or your relationships or anything for that matter! For instance, a person takes up a job expecting career growth, financial incentives, social life etc etc etc…Each to his own..Nobody is into something not expecting anything…if that makes sense…

Anyways, I have myself been through some very unexpected situations in my life…some that I never imagined I would have to face..so I guess the point behind not expecting anything from your life is that when we don’t expect a particular outcome from a particular situation or a person, we would not be upset when some negative situation arises….I don’t know how it is practically possible for a human not to expect anything out of life…

My life’s been full of ups and downs, crests and troughs, although I have not really been the “risk-takers” type….nevertheless its been one hell of a journey I must say!


  • Life: Helloo?? Did I ever tell that I am speaking about myself...?? But in general yes...its true that one should never be ungrateful of what he has been
  • vinay: I understand the essence of your post. But I think you need not dwell too much about what others have got or what you don't have. Everyone has proble
  • Life: Well, not always you get to choose...right??

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